I’ve ever really been away. I’ve just been hibernating – watching and listening from afar. Choosing when and where I wanted to be seen or heard.

I make it sound very grand and mysterious, but the truth is much simpler.

More than ten years ago, I decided to stop taking bookings from churches and step away from working with Spirit on a regular basis. I was burnt out. I was over it. I was tired of witnessing – and sometimes finding myself in the middle of – the endless online drama. More than anything, I just needed a rest.

Over the years, I’d still get the occasional call from a church or centre asking if I could fill a date. Every now and then, I’d bump into someone who remembered me from those days, and they’d ask if I still did “it”. I’d always cringe.

I’d moved on. I was running my own business, and I wanted to be taken seriously in that role.

I even remember telling friends that the very thought of stepping back onto platform to demonstrate again made my skin itch with dread.

But here’s the thing – I always knew it was only a temporary break.

Even back then, I knew I’d find my way back eventually. I trusted that Spirit would let me know when the time was right, where I needed to be, and that everything would fall into place.

I just didn’t expect it to take ten years.

(And I call myself a psychic.)

Although, if I’m being completely honest, the journey back actually began around three years ago.

Quietly.

I accepted an invitation from one church and started demonstrating there again. It just felt like the right thing to do at the right time.

There are plenty of stories to tell from those ten years – and those first tentative steps back – but they’re for future blog posts.

For now, though, I’m simply emerging from the shadows into a very different world. A post-pandemic world. A world where online demonstrations, workshops and communities have opened up possibilities I could never have imagined before.

It feels amazing.

My heart is full.

I’m incredibly grateful to the friends and acquaintances who have welcomed me back so warmly and given me opportunities to work again. I know there will be many more new connections – and reconnections – to come.

And, of course, I’m grateful to Spirit.

Thank you for welcoming me home.

Thank you for giving me back my love for this work.

Thank you for reminding me that there’s always more to learn.

I’m genuinely excited to be a student again – to sit in workshops, to watch people work, to experience different styles and approaches, and simply to enjoy learning without feeling that I always have to be the one standing on the platform.

Thank you for the new experiences, the new friendships, and the opportunities that are still to come.

Thank you for continuing to humble me whenever my ego needs reminding.

After all these years, it feels good to step back into the sunshine instead of hiding in the shade.

It feels good to be back.